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nokna
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why did my world fall apart?.
something happened that really threw me out of my mind.
Na went to get changed and when she returned she said she was just going to go out and buy some food for her friends.
she returned and to my frustration,she had bought some for herself and sat with her friends and had the meal.
since i had BF'd Na,Nok had danced a couple of times but not returned to sit with me and sat with her friends.
however there was another falang in the bar and he eventually called her over to him and bought her a drink and they chatted.
i could'nt stop watching them,this was the first time i seen Nok sitting with another man and i began to feel very uneasy.
i wanted to leave,but Na would'nt leave yet and as i watched Nok i knew the man was going to BF her.
i began to get really sweaty and uptight,i wanted him to say goodbye to Nok and leave.
but then the worse thing happened,he produced the 500 and gave it to her and she took it to the bar and went upstairs to get changed.
that was it,i could'nt face the thought of seeing her walk out with him and i left the price of the drinks in the bin and grabbed Na and told her we were leaving.
she protested,but i TOLD HER we were leaving and she saw the look on my face and quickly agreed and off we went.
i was so shocked and upset,why was Nok going with another man?,after all,all her friends thought of us as boyfriend/girlfriend.
why did she feel the need to go with another man?.
i was not thinking at all and then the anger set in and it ruined the time i spent with Na.
we made love,the normal ordinary sex with her,but all the time i was thinking of Nok doing the same thing at the same time as me.
i could'nt handle it and gave up with Na.
she asked what the problem was many times that night,but i could'nt tell her.
i really was upset Nok had gone with another man.
i just could'nt handle the situation and after Na and i went out in the evening,the demons really got to me and i treated her badly.
we went to Rockhard,as i had some photo's to give to Pla and Jip and one of the owners bought me a beer.
allday i had drunk nothing but coke,but as i drank that first beer,i knew i had to have many more.
around 9 p.m. i told Na to go,she objected,saying we had said L/T and she wanted to stay with me.
but i did'nt want her anymore,i had now began to blame her,it was all her fault.
if she had'nt stayed and ate the food with her friends,i would'nt have seen Nok having the BF paid.
at that moment i hated Na,i never wanted to speak to her or see her ever again.
i had really lost it.
i told her she was 'mai dee poo-ying' and a whore and basically physically pushed her away from me and told her to 'f_ck off'.
of course she was really upset and walked out of Rockhard crying.
and of course the dancers saw she was upset,and while she did'nt work there and they did'nt know her,i got a few bad looks from some of them.
Pla and Jip sat with me and asked what the problem was,but i could'nt/would'nt explain things.
my mind was still on Nok,was she at that moment being f_cked?,giving a BJ? or just having a meal?.
i knew the only thing to do was to get REALLY DRUNK,and i went for it in a big way.
the first couple of hours i visited a few bars and everytime i was approached by a girl,i waved them away.
i wanted and NEEDED to be alone.
i got so shit-faced tonight and my memories of the last part of the night are non-exsistant.
i don't remember the last few bars i went in and how i got home,that's anyone's guess,i just do not remember.
but i went home alone.
i had acted ao appallingly toward Na and said things to her that i really regretted the next day.
but in my mind it was her fault and i took everything out on her.
i was the complete arsehole this night.
but i was to get my cumuppance the next day.
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Thai Girls : Meet Sexy Thai Girls
Posted on: 12:58 pm on June 19, 2003
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chilli
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thanks for sharing mate, but maybe this should go in the trip reports(FR) section for phuket(outside bkk) or similar 
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Bangkok Women : Meet Sensual Bangkok Women
Posted on: 4:32 pm on June 19, 2003
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cmore
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Bro I believe the Jedi Master himself decided to move Nokna's reports to this topic section. He's in the right place. Peace
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Thai Girls : Meet Sexy Thai Girls
Posted on: 6:37 pm on June 19, 2003
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nokna
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chilli,these are in the Phuket section and as cmore says,BK informed me personally he was moving the FR's to the Phuket section.
i admit i was a little concerned about posting this story.
i thought about toning it down a little and not telling it as it happened.
things happened that i am not proud of and i was/still am expecting a bit of flaming for my actions,and i would have no defence if people had a go at me.
and this time the drink was not the problem,i had only had one drink when i verbally abused Na and treated her so badly.
more will be explained in the next FR and i became aware of the amazing attitude of the Girls.
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Bangkok Girls : Meet Sexy Bangkok Girls
Posted on: 2:23 am on June 20, 2003
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MickyK1971
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He Nokna,
As you supposed, some may hold a grudge against you for all of this, and when I first read the reports, I thought what an asshole. But your admittance that you're not proud of your actions and even ashamed (a bit) pulls the sting out of it (for me).
Perhaps this sounds silly, but I am really looking forward to your next report. Just to see how all this shit can end well for all parties involved. Hell, even when it does not ends all well and good I am still curious about it.
What I do not understand however is this misconception you had about Nok. She is a bargirl after all and has to work. So, when you're with Na it is just work for Nok to be with someone else. And when you consider how you treated her, I can imagine that she was not really enthousiastic towards you.
Cheers,
MickyK
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Bangkok Women : Meet Beautiful Thai Girls
Posted on: 12:50 pm on June 20, 2003
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nokna
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you may have hit the nail on the head Micky.
yes Nok is/was a BG and why should'nt she go about her business if i did'nt want her?.
this will become clear in the next part of the story.
i have done a few things in LOS which i regret and i know some of the girls have been hurt,but i have also been hurt by some of them i had very good relationships with.
but even now,almost 2 years to the day since i abused Na so badly,the incident with her still preys on my mind.
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Bangkok Girls : Meet Attractive Thai Girls
Posted on: 1:46 pm on June 20, 2003
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MickyK1971
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Nokna,
Are you saying that you had these experiences 2 years ago!! Who, man you must have a really good memory.
On the other hand I still remember most of my experiences in LOS from my first (and sadly only) visit almost 2 years ago.
Like seeing a fellow Dutchman in jail, rotting away for 40 years. Some other good things as well. Mostly because of reading on this forum my memory has turned itself in overdrive and all the good things, and bad as well, are coming back.
Would any be interested in some of those stories? What do you think Nokna?
Cheers,
MickyK
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Thai Girls : Meet Active Thai Girls
Posted on: 1:52 pm on June 20, 2003
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nokna
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Micky.
Padawan mused about the memory thing on May 18.
this was my reply.
"i've kept a diary since i was 16 and write in them everyday.
when i go away i take little notebooks and when i sit down with my first beer of the afternoon,i fill in the previous days events.
who i BF'd,where from,who i talked to and in which bars,but most of the stories are easy to remember.
i do the same thing during the day and visit the same bars at night.
just fining tuning of the details is needed.
anything i thought of as unusual or an experience i might or might not have wanted to repeat is put into more detail.
of course there are things i forget and conversations cannot be recorded 100%.
if i had a conversation with someone which meant something then for the purpose of these FR's,i put them in a general way to try and convey the moment so that people will hopefully understand.
but there are some things so vivid in my mind to this day.
things i remember so clearly,i will never forget.
i m also blessed with a good memory and if i was to meet you and you asked me to tell you the story of any particular day,i will tell you and you could look at the FR and see how close my verbal and written story was.
i'm no real expert on LOS and have only ever spent 91 days in the country,but i like to play a game sometimes.
i might be having a crafty cigarette at 16:00 and allowing for the time difference try to remember what i was doing at that exact time on that particular day
i'm pretty good at knowing.
after all,some of my best(and worst) times have ever been had in LOS.
hope that explains things.
any FR's are welcome,i like to read them.
no matter how they are written or what the content is,i find them interesting.
post away and tell us of your good(and bad?).
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Thai Women : Meet Matured Thai Women
Posted on: 1:51 am on June 21, 2003
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peterpan
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I think think that alot of us would act the same, given the honey pot just put in front of us.
Nockna, The admission that you give is good in the fact, that I think if you go again , will help you now to have a totally different approach to things.
Love the stories, no the expierence's of life which you
portray very well, you make my life look like a bloody saint!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Bangkok Girls : Meet Attractive Thai Girls
Posted on: 2:54 am on June 21, 2003
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