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cyborg
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OK guys,
I dont know how many of you have followed my "Cyborg Invasion" series of FRs that were very extensive but I am a sad man because of them.
Bottom line: I decided to dive full on into the ultimate TGFE and experience it fully......I did this with a Falang fiance at home. Inside I really knew I could never risk dropping my life to be with my BG Tilac. Of course she was awesome in everyway but that is at best a long shot to mantain in Falangland for a full relationship. I decided to end it with her and we have done so amicably...she expressed her sadness but no animosity....I am feeling like a real f_cker....
I feel like I used a wonderful person for a social experiment and I am less of a person for it. I am paying a emotional price for it because it was me that ended it...she has no fault in this.
I am preparing to go back to LOS in Nov-Dec for a month. I will not go to Pattaya because I know I will be unable to resist seeing her.
I fell in love deeply on purpose and knew deep down it could never be a real relationship.
It is likely that I feel a lot more for her than she EVER felt or me but that does not IMHO excuse my bad behaviour.
I do not even know why I am writing this.... I think these women are the most amazingly beautiful and attentive women ever....but I cannot see myself dropping my life for one. I am not such a risk taker me thinks.
To dream....my god these women are special in this world.
I think about my Thai lady whenever I have a free minute of mental time. I am sad.
Cyborg
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Bangkok Girls : Meet Attractive Thai Girls
Posted on: 4:31 pm on Sep. 22, 2004
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HarryParatestes
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So how do you feel about the farang fiancee?
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Bangkok Women : Meet Sensual Bangkok Women
Posted on: 5:18 pm on Sep. 22, 2004
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compexec1
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I can see how easy it is to lose it with a good one. My hart goes out to you, I'll try to learn from your exp.
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Posted on: 6:11 pm on Sep. 22, 2004
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hzink
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Good question - what about the falang GF, and how did you feel about her before your experiment, and how do you feel about her now?
Harry
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Posted on: 7:39 pm on Sep. 22, 2004
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sirtitus
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Cyborg,
Careful when you come back to LOS. Pattaya will be a dangerous temptation for you.
I'd wager if you do end up going to Pattaya, you'll do like so many other farangs and end up moving to LOS and marrying your BG sweetheart.
Not that that is a bad thing, of course.... it'll just be a VERY different life than the one you are living now in Farangland.
For me personally, I'm happier here in LOS and I don't regret at all my decision to move here.
Good luck. 
Sirtitus
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Posted on: 11:12 pm on Sep. 22, 2004
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Hugh Jardon
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I can really identify with your feelings, Cyborg, as can most of the guys on this forum, I'd imagine.
What immediately came to mind when I read your plight, were the words of a great song sung by Frank Sinatra. I think it says it all.
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Fairy tales can come true, it can happen to you
If you're young at heart
For it's hard, you will find, to be narrow of mind
If you're young at heart
You can go to extremes with impossible schemes
You can laugh when your dreams fall apart at the seams
And life gets more exciting with each passing day
And love is either in your heart or on its way
Don't you know that it's worth every treasure on earth
To be young at heart
For as rich as you are it's much better by far
To be young at heart
And if you should survive to 105
Look at all you'll derive out of being alive
Then here is the best part
You have a head start
If you are among the very young at heart
And if you should survive to 105
Look at all you'll derive out of being alive
Then here is the best part
You have a head start
If you are among the very young at heart
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Ok, you'll stay away from Pattaya, so you don't see her there, but there's another one just like her in any village, town or city in Thailand.
Is your Falang fiancee going with you on the next trip? If so, that will put a damper on your activities, won't it? Then it would be more a case of not going to Pattaya for fear of your fiancee meeting your Thai girl!
As for thinking that you are less of a person for your 'experiment' I would disagree. You have learned a lot about yourself from it and the fact that you have deep regrets about how you may have hurt this adorable girl speaks well of your character.
You do not know why you are writing this. I expect that it is partly because it feels good to share a burden with others who might have had similar experiences and who can offer advice. Hardly anybody you know in the Falang World would understand and tell you that you did the right thing, that it was a madness on your part and that now you've come to your senses with a nice Falang girl. Most guys here will offer opinions that will be far more relevent to your situation.
The problem that you will have now with the relationship with your Falang fiancee, is that you will constantly be comparing her with the Thai g/f. Unless she's exceptional, there's a good chance that she won't measure up in many departments.
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Posted on: 1:49 am on Sep. 23, 2004
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samthedog
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cyborg
Posted on 4:46 am on Sep. 23, 2004
To dream....my god these women are special in this world.
I think about my Thai lady whenever I have a free minute of mental time. I am sad
Et Tu Brutus?
(Yes, to give up a Thai love feels like the 27 stab wounds to finish off Julius Caesar!)
Sorry mate.
Yes, there are many here who have suffered the same state!
Doesn't make it any easier, I know, but at least you know we understand.
I feel for you.
'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all (tennison)
The only cure I have found is visit bangkok, and take a trip to a soapy AND an oily every day for a week!
Now that makes me a little less sad.
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Posted on: 2:02 am on Sep. 23, 2004
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cyborg
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THX bros.....I was expecting to get slammed for being a wimp....
Yes my Falang fiance is going on this trip with me...for only 3 weeks of it...then she heads home...she is agreeable to what I do in LOS..I have been doing it for 12years....this will be my 5th trip to LOS....she is not aware that I made a connection with a lady last 2 times. Sex is not considered to be a major deal for her but I accidently mentioned to her once that I had written to and received a letter from a previous Tilac...she got PISSED OFF..sex is no big deal...connection is very different.
I have been to many other countries but I find myself focussing more and more on LOS after experiencing many other cultures.
Like I said I will be running amok in BKK from Dec 7 thru 16th...if you are around...lets have a few cold ones and....a few warm ones!!
Cyborg
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Posted on: 2:44 am on Sep. 23, 2004
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CheshireCat
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First ever time in Pattaya I had a farang girlfriend with me and ached to come back. Unfortunately she was one of those who wouldn't let you go anywhere alone. When we got chatting to the bar girls etc it was so frustrating as I couldn't get over how good looking one in particular was.
She gave me her e mail address, farang girlfriend was soon history and was back there withinn weeks.
Really don't blame you fella.
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Posted on: 4:39 am on Sep. 23, 2004
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